Ani talk

I got this mail... when I first came to USA...(Other side of globe). I was alone, bore, desperate to go back.
This was general mail started with simple conversation... goes beyond.

Its about Ani (http://iamag33k.blogspot.com/)...(selflabled G33k... I use other word)
Well... He is the Gold Medalist of his batch, fan of Avril, addicted of Coffee, Passionate for coding, follower of Linux... Started with Wipro... helped Lehman Brothers in bancrupsy later :) and currently with Nomura(Company who bought LB India Operation)




This mail is in original format... (I just deleted one name)




Date: 8/27/06

Hey,


I guess you can pass this mail to all ur friends. Kinda plain simple General Mail written while sipping coffee (So u know I am not drunk!).





First few days in USA, everything seems nice. It may seem nice to ur eyes but not to ur heart, coz heart always confuses everybody. It's a hidden thought that you never want to deal with and try to smile away everything that comes your way. The cool, calm atmosphere of ignorant people where nobody cares may seem nice to you. It's like you love the independent thing thrust on you for the first few days or the first few hours. Time keeps changing and clock keeps tickin and you find yourself nobody talkative enough just to listen to you. For an extrovert person like you it may never be the case.


Remember career is the foremost thing that matters.....things in the heart keep changing and sometimes they may be right also....but ur mind is never wrong...however evil it may become. U know why coz it always thinks about you. Heart may prompt you to think about others but have you ever felt ur brain prompting you to think about others. I know it's selfish for me to write this stuff, but belive me truth is always bitter as you might have known. It's a hard to accept but general truth that "One you loves may never love you back...and one u do not love wil always love u back" ....It's kinda Murphy's law.........So what do u do...try to love the ones who u don't love...hoping that ones who do not love....will rethink. No I know this is not ur attitude. U r tooo engrossed in your life that you hardly think about those people. And we never should but sometimes there are times when u r prompted to rethink about the simplest of things.....(Hey I am not talkin about ****....it's about someone in general....u will find out soon). Trying to absorb urself in work and never thinkin about it may seem the best solution but it's an ever lasting one. Know why coz even GEETA says....tat "Always work...without expectin result". It may or may not come and sometimes it never does in short duration. Sometimes u keep thinkin about something and try to change urself just to show him / her tat u can change. But change is the only thing that shows ur weakness. U remember u had told me once...."I wish u never change"...I also wished the same for myself. It's like te best thing to do is always be in love with urself..........People will come by and go...but ur own self will never leave you. It's like defining urself....ur strengths and ur weaknesses to urself and u can't cheat bcoz u r the one lookin after it. Have u ever tried defining urself? I see so many good qualities in so many people that i just wanna copy them but u know somethings can't be copied they can just be admired. (My Punch line I know!).

Here are my examples...


Nitya........Most caring person....but never shows it....tries to joke away everything..and u never know what he is thinkin. It's like u can hate him and love him at the same time.

Sunil......Fun lovin person.....with amazing sense of humour......

Sankalp.......Perfect philospher............with an answer to every question.....Will never tell anything about himself...and try to find more and more about u...andwill always respect ur opinion......


Shikha.....Childish behavior which hides a mature person

Kushboo..... Mature and caring..........likes to be a leader..... (truly will become a gr8 manager)

Pooja.....u never know whats in her heart...she will never show even her anger...she will wait till it subsides...and will resume laughing at everything. Mostsenstive emotional person u will ever come across.


But it's like I miss somethings so much that i just wanna be someone else. Maybe these feelings come to u also...or maybe they will come in loneliness coz it's the only thing that makes u rethink about complete nonsense. But still I hope u always concentrate on ur career....I know u ignore my comments about ur studyuing skills.

But I know when u put ur mind to something...even god can't stop u from doing that. It's like u have a knack for problem solving but u never acknowldge that or u r too modest to do that. It's one of the best qualities I like about u...coz I try to brag about my knowledge thats why people know it. But u have so many things to share that I know u can never be alone anywhere.....in USA or anywhere in world. Coz people like to interact with people who have something to give...not something to take away. It's kinda selfishness in a general way. Everybody accepts that, even while making friends u choose on the basis of something. Maybe u never do it but ur subconcious mind does.......i know u will never accept that...coz selfishness is never ur trait but just wanted to put it into words.



Well waitin for ur contact number...so I can shell out some money from ISD Phones here in office.....!

Till then

Bye

TC

Enjoy

Ani



Regards,

Animesh Saxena