Sankalp says...

Here is a guy with whom you can Discuss... but whatever is present below is not a discussion.



Sankalp... I wont/cant describe him. He is he.
Just like always you may draw his picture as per your perceptions and imaginations.



I may not have the complete idea of what made him and I to write these mails but this is the way many times we talk.



Seems we live or dream in an Imaginative Idea world...but this is the way we think and believe we will get it.



Mails are in original form. Original mail from Sankalp followed with my reply of this follows Sankalp re reply.







Date: 4th Oct 2008



You know I don't resist,.. I don't like resisting... it kills you, your natural self... thats why writing again...




Hesitation is not me... I never wanted it to be... but for a long time.. it remained a part of me.. killing me softly... not knowing it was its own skin which it was shredding to pieces... Now sometimes... the feeling is ... No... I can't describe...itIts not the feeling of working in the world's biggest media agency or for that matter world's biggest automobile company...doing what you wanted to do or something like that... the feeling is important when you can still feel something burning in your belly..bcoz the moment there is no fire... all one ll be left with ..will be ash...


have lost money in markets a year ago... kept loosing for almost one and a half year... yes,.. was in pain... but efforts... that feel to learn, unlearn... n learn again... its like those adventorus rides we have taken to versoli, alibagh n other different places...


remember that bike ride...objective was not reachin there... objective was enjoying the journey... or maybe that became the objective... or we realised thats what shud have been the objective... once you n nits met wit an accident...I can still see clearly Nits' smile n that freaking out/yelling n shouting like looking directly in life's face... bcoz journey is what decides the goal...journey is what makes this life worth living..all i cud feel was life that moment bhai... fear... I dnt knw what it meant... or whether it existed.. Its like the moment we start living n u cud feel the FORCE with you...


Lot of people have started laughing at me... yes again...:)


saying why don't u concentrate in media... why stock markets now...


I have a question to myself why not now....we write rules... we create blocks in our mind.. we create the world as we want it... its like either inhale or exhale... don't do both...why... bcoz u might lose focus...


Every passion ...has a different space in your life..and that space deserves that passion..


2 years now into Media n enjoying it... my soul still has blisters of the fire within... in fact the blisters have doubled.. one more passion has joined the fray...


2 yrs into market... lot of burning hands... but enjoyed every moment of that burning sensation... infact loved it...


haaan sapna hai... kuch apna kaam karna hai... kab tak .. nahi pata..


jyada nahi pakaunga....


Sankalp




-- Dreams are not those which you see when you sleep, But those which don't let you sleep till they are achieved.











Date: 9th Oct 2008



Mostly you reply to an argument or an answer. Whatever you have statedand tried to put it is neither of these. Its an statement. and you know I dont have any different stand from yours. Infact no one has.


We all studied in the same kind of school, where they taught us thesame apart from the text....think big, dream big. be good, be brave.no fear, dont scare....etc.same to all isnt. that is our foundation.that is what we have made up of, designed for. we keep growing. like many chapters, subjects and books we keep forgetting our basics toouless we keep revising them, utilising them. you know what is meant by revising here. keep dreaming...keep thinking....BIG. be good, be brave. the moment you have stopped the revision, you will find lots of companion but believe me that will be the moment when you will be more uncomfortable and restless...cause you are away from your root, you have left your base. the more you are doing the revision the more comfortable you will become for the test.


dont compare but look around. how many do you find, who are achieversas per your definition...ability vs achievement. i bet you will not besurprised. you know the reason as well, person at the position of his choice has is not a hard worker essentially but he is a hard believer...in his capabilities, his dreams, his choices and every thing that is related to him only.


we kept growing...suddenly we have been started to taught that we need to compromise. we need not to dream. be realistic. but what isreal....now we are confused. our base is shaken. same person when weare kid is stating something which is not same. where to go. Choice.keep dreaming or welcome the so called real world full of choiceless lives.
not very strange, any species doesnt welcome outcast unless they find he is superior or beneficial. do you think either of these two is something you admire. No. because this is again not from choice. first one generates from fear and second from selfishness. now you become inert. inert for those choiceless surroundings. you look for the ones who still have spirit alive within. you have respect, love and sense of brotherhood with them. you create a world with them. that is the world of your choice. your place of satisfaction and happiness. how many years will it take to build it. dont know, dont care. but that is worth keep waiting and keep trying. because just to say a single sentence at the end of the day "...and this part of my life is calledHappiness" takes a lifetime, a lifetime full of choice, believe and....Dream.


I dont prefer writing all these...cause for the person i write knows the better meaning and live these words every moment. for me its in theory for you in your bloodline. but as you asked me to....this isfor you. Wish your every step bring you closure to your dream and in this journey you will find many Real FRIENDS around you. Cause you will get satisfaction when you will reach the destination but its Friends who makes the journey interesting and worth remembering.

Wish you a Successful Interesting Journey.

...Maddy


--Best Wishes,

Madhukar



"when you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you toachieve it."











Date: 17th Oct 2008



Almost all the time... you undermine yourself,your efforts.. don't know why... I am the one who is inspired by your efforts... that resilience... that tenacity.. You shouldn't forget them ever..You won't be able to... ever.. Useless advising..


No way and no where have you been moving away from what you have written before.. Phase of desperation or frustration doesn't decides life.. Its a decision during that phase which does...


Sometimes I wonder, its gud that we have signals.. where the two most important lights are RED and YELLOW.. if you look back in retrospect these two are the ones who give us a breather in life... time to reflect contemplate...what fun would life if there would be no RED and YELLOW light in life...racing faster and faster ... but where... these 2 lights tell us, provoke us to think and answer the question... "where"


so any phase which brings restlessness is infact peaceful... its the phase which is not making us restless should disturb us...


some stories never end... jus to make interesting, they always keep having new chapters...


Wat more do we want !!


rgrds

Sankalp

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I may post some of his mails in my next blogs.